Loss of Innocence

One boy is all it takes to ruin a girls life.
Before him, she was a girl with a strong beliefs that didn't budge ever.
She was strong young lady with her own opinions of what is right and wrong.
She was what little bit of innocence I saw left in the world.
So young. Then she met a boy. And that boy changed everything.
She used to be repulsed at the sight of any drugs and would never think of doing them herself. She was a virgin. And She knew what was best for her in a boy.
She cared about her body and about her mind and heart.
She met this one boy who was the opposite of everything she was raised and everything she believed.
She did the worse possible thing, she fell in love with him.
She gave it all away to that boy.
Now she gets high, has sex. And sooner then later, she will be drinking, its not long before she is not even any bit her old self.

And it breaks my heart.

Nevershoutnever

Kinda blows now.
I spent about 20 minutes listening to his Debut album and it sucks.
Epic suck. He cusses more then he ever did, his lyrics are ridiculously stupid.
His songs have this feel to them that is nothing like his old stuff at all.
His new style is not good for him. Others could do it, but he completely abandoned what made him what he is today. I have a feeling a lot of people are disappointed.

Your grace is all I need

Tonight my best friend read me Romans 10:9 "That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." On the phone tonight, and asked to lead me in the sinners prayer.
I haven't stopped shaking since. I have felt it getting closer and closer every day.
It was inevitable. But am I ready to take that step again?
Give it all up for the sake of the son?
I want to, but a part of me is still being pulled back.
I told him on the phone that if he would have seen me two years ago he would have seen a girl so wrapped up and in love with the father that nothing else mattered. He asked me what happened to that. And I couldn't even muster a good enough answer...
Because I have no excuse.
Is tonight gonna be that night?

Twitter

I was watching BuckHollywood live on blog t.v. And I decided to submit and get a fucking twitter. I can't believe I finally got one of those, I hate them. But whatever, everyone who is anyone has a twitter. And in order to get far in your life its not about who you know, its who knows you. So yeah, I guess I am trying to get known. Hooray?